IX
Jesus Falls a Third Time
You didn't get very far this time, Lord.
Everything's hazy now.
Lying there dazed, there's no new decision to get up again.
That decision was made in the sweat and blood of the garden.
Now it's just a question of going through with it.
Sometimes, Lord, I feel Your life flow into me.
I think of others all the time
And have great energy for work.
I feel I'm really going places.
Then things begin to go wrong.
Nothing works out.
It's so different from before that I can't believe it's true.
I feel a stranger to myself.
The more I try, the worse it gets.
Lying there, dazed and dejected, I cannot pray,
But only wonder - what's the use?
Thank You for Your answer, Lord,
Thank you for going through with it.