III
Jesus Falls
You knew what it was like to be tired.
Remember when You sank to the ground near the well at Sychar, thirsty
and exhausted?
Many times You felt Your sense of purpose threatened by the tiredness
of Your body.
You said to Peter in the garden: "The spirit is willing but the
flesh is weak"
Lord, were you surprised when You felt so weak that you fell?
My surprise is not that You fell but that You got up again.
That's my trouble, Lord, getting up again.
I don't like being down but it's such an effort to get up again.
It's miserable on the ground but there's something safe about it.
It's not really living but there are times, Lord, when I don't really
want to live.
There on the ground I can think about the past and what I have achieved.
I can dream wonderful dreams, I can live other people's lives.
Lord, Help me up!
Don't let me shrink from living even for a little while.